26 Aug Surrender, Scars and Choice
Almost a year ago, on my 48th bday, I got the word “surrender” tattooed on my right arm. It was my first and ONLY tattoo. I wanted that word because it means a lot to me. I know now (and knew when it became my word to live by) that surrendering is the only way for me to live. The opposite of surrender, to me, means to CONTROL and control is an illusion.
When we ‘try’ to control things, (circumstances, situations, our bodies, even people) it sets us up for disappointment, failure and sadness. We waste time chasing an illusion. And dang I lived in “control” for 48 years.
When we let go of that control, stay present and learn to accept that life happens FOR us, not TO us, there are tremendous gifts with that. Lessons, growth, peace, joy, connection, deep friendships to be found, and so much fulfillment.
When I finally GOT that I wanted it tattooed , on my RIGHT arm, PERMANENTLY so that I’d be reminded of it daily.
Little did I know that day getting that tattoo that scars would also line that arm as a deep reminder later.
I did not know then what 2020 would bring.
I did not know that I would have the accident and injuries that I had now
I did not know that there would be so many massive shifts in so many areas
But the word… surrender has continued to serve me well.
I can confidentially say that 2020 has been nothing but blessings to me . Not because of what has happened or what is happening but because of how I have SURRENDERED to it all.
Life happens FOR us not to us. It’s a choice to look at it that way.